I must always be out on the edge. Otherwise, what is the point? Life otherwise is not satisfying. There are two kind of people always in life: those who are on the edge, and those who are afraid to try. Right, I am always pushing my boundaries even if I don't know what is beyond the edge. I must at least try to find out, even if it ends in failure. Americans usually are the second type. I know composers who have no aspiration higher than teaching at J.C. in small town in Texas. Well, that is their choice. I go a different way. A way that will lead to the edge. Most Americans will be confounded by this. That is because their laziness prevents them from seeking a new path. But I must always seek a new path, no matter if it means others cannot follow. If they betray me because they have fear to lead in their life, it is for them to decide. Right, I already don't care about those people.